~MoO MoO~

Monday, January 17, 2005
「 love was in the air, 11:45 AM 」

I'm pretty sure that i'm not being overly sensitive. I'm like 100% sure that he's avoiding me. No reply in MSN, no sms-es, no calling me on the phone to chat, not even replies to my sms-es... That sms i sent yesterday was so darn sweet i bet even a rock will have some response and all i got from him was a call saying he appreciated it. Why? Hmm... new girl in his life? Someone better? Someone who won't bother him when he's IN A QUIET MOOD?? Or is he just running away cos he thinks i'm getting too reliant on him? Cos i might actually start acting like a gf to him?
Oh well, whatever~ Seriously, loving him is hurting so much so often i think my heart might actually get numb very soon. In fact, my heart is slowly becoming numb already. Look at the way i'm writing in this entry and you can see. I think i should seriously just give up... I've been talking about it so often but now, i seriously mean it. If he doesn't wanna reply me on MSN then fine!! Don't reply. Sooner or later, me will get used to it. Then i'll just go back to being a free single. I can start flirting with guys i think are cute... I can start concentrating on my lessons more. I might even get a GPA of 3.7 for this term!!! Looks like the benefits of being single (and i mean single as in not even loving any guy at all) is so great... Hmm... Worth thinking about...

YYY